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Past Poems (August)

All the poems I have here were written in August in previous years. Each is the first poem I wrote that August.

Welcome to the Movie Theater

31 August 2013

The midnight atmosphere,

Hardly any light.

The expected brightness

being processed instantaneously.

Music booming,

Sound-absorbers throbbing,

shocked by the sudden onslaught.

Images appearing magically,

Color-processors reeling,

trying to comprehend the attack.

Then, in surprise, it darkens again,

Leaving behind

a sense of mystery

and excitement

Coupled with

an overpowering feeling

of being full.

A story having been told

before the attendence,

Come to be amazed by

Today’s wonderous, fantastic, dreamlike

Movies.

 

Pretending Mirrors

27 August 2014

It is often easy

for me to

Pretend

that I am

Someone, Something, else…

Then I look

in the Mirror…

And it all comes back to me…

 

Confusing Frustration

9 August 2015

I wonder, why can’t I be stronger,

why can’t it take longer for

tears to overtake me,

to drown me,

to pull me away from control over myself?

 

Another Trip to Holiday World

6 August 2016

Up, down, all around

these mem’ries swirl

around me.

Soon I’ll relive

a few of them

with new friends that

surround me.

The Apocalypse of Irqulnirn

I am currently writing a short story that may become a novelette set on Irqulnirn after an apocalypse. It actually inspired the creation of quarzyls.

This is the historical background for the piece. Some of the details are incomplete at this time and require more worldbuilding.

Irqulnirn is dependent upon quarzyls’ life-giving and creating abilities, because of its distance from N’Zembe. This is common knowledge among Irqulnirn’s inhabitants, yet not often are its full implications considered.
The quarzyls live throughout Irqulnirn, nourishing the soil and assisting in the growth of plants and sometimes animals. However, a large concentration of them live in the country of Arziki, creating a greater level of prosperity there than anywhere else on the planet.
Jealousy sparked in the hearts of the other peoples, and they decided to band together and attack Arziki. The quarzyls from elsewhere gathered in Arziki with their fellow quarzyls. The quarzyls, despite preferring small groups, began building all around Arziki’s borders with magic-resistant stone mined from their country and nearby lands. They built a wall two hundred and fifty feet tall, five feet wide.
As soon as the wall was tall enough to block the quarzyl’s magic, Irqulnirn began to suffer. All the other species began to die from starvation and suffocation. The plants helped regulate Irqulnirn’s atmosphere and temperature. Now without them, there was no hope or possibility for life outside of Arziki.
The quarzyls had not thought through the results of their actions, not fully realizing how dependent Irqulnirn truly was on their magic. The other species did not realize this either.
Over time, after those first quarzyls had died and several generations passed, everyone forgot about life before the walls. Life with other species. Life elsewhere on Irqulnirn. The people were content, lacking nothing, creating all they could ever want or need. However, their true purpose had been lost. They had killed their planet and all those who depended on them. Those they were meant to protect and nourish were killed at the hands of those who made their lives possible on this far away planet.
One small green speck exists on Irqulnirn when viewed from space. Eventually, it too will cease, once Irqulnirn drifts too far from N’Zembe for even the quarzyls to live.

Panera Bread: Job Review

I started working at Panera Bread in May 2017 and will no longer work there after August 16th.

Based on my experience, Panera Bread is a good job for students who cannot work full time and are looking to make some money.

The training at corporate emphasizes that there is upward career movement possible within the cafe. Some of that is as simple as becoming a trainer. The line cook, bakery, or prep trainers make more per hour than the regular workers with minimal extra responsibility.

While at Panera, I learned more about teamwork and improved my ability to work with others.
I’m introverted and I was homeschooled. I never had group projects at school because I was the only student. I didn’t have experience working as a team before.
At Panera, it’s important to help coworkers, especially during a rush. If the person making salads is swamped and I don’t have sandwiches to make, I ask where they’re at and start making salads too, telling them what I’m making.
We communicate what we have done, how we’re helping, and shift back to our own job when necessary.

I learned to work under pressure.
During a rush, the time in which the order is supposed to be out remains the same. We have to work quickly and accurately to put the food together and consolidate it.
I make mistakes sometimes, and when that happens, I fix it. I’ve had times where a hot sandwich was finished, and I dropped it on the floor when I pulled it off the grill. Whatever else I was doing, I had to stop and remake that sandwich. It can be frustrating and stressful sometimes, but I ensure the food is correct and finished as quickly as possible.

Overall, Panera Bread was a good second job. It allowed me to learn skills that would help me in other jobs.

Shahwings (Species Description)

Some details relating to names are pending an edit so they conform to the language used by the people rather than English.

(Derogatively called Shwings)

Characteristics:
human-like body, feathery wings on back, wispy hair, shorter and lighter than humans, wide feet with rough soles; male, female, or zirch

Found on:
Lekreanfyr, Fohrtiil, Qarlilian, Arshilkrin, Ortenfeil, Slyrpfyrn, Xhorgliff, Yrfsholgh

Social habits: mature at 8 (Earth) years, couple with a shahwing of the opposite sex generally around the same time, highly social — spend most of their time with other shahwings

Lifespan:
20-70 (Earth) years, depending on the planet, climate conditions, etc.

Housing:
high ceilings, high off the ground, no stairs, curtains instead of doors, vibrant decor, nest-like hammocks for beds

Clothing:
flowing halter tops with open backs (shirt or dress) and pants (if not a dress)

Familial structure:
mom and dad start a house, children can choose to build extensions off the original structure or start their own house after they marry

Children:
mothers carry 1-3 baby shahwings for 6 (Earth) months, nurse them for 1 (Earth) year; males generally remain in the family’s house structure, females leave to the husband’s, zirch are either kept as servants or sold to others

Zirch is a third gender for some species that is incapable of reproduction because they do not have reproductive organs.

Hierarchy:
based on wing colors and patterns — white, beige, then brown for base colors, patterned wings in each color are lower than the single-color based on the color of the marks (same order as for the main social strata)

Abilities:
flight, telepathy (with other shahwings or other creatures with telepathy), craftsmanship (especially construction)

My Mistake of Platforms

Those of you who also have WordPress.com sites may know that my site is on the same platform. From the url of the page you’re on, you can see that I paid for my domain, alyssa-wright.com.

What you can’t see is that I made a mistake by purchasing it.

Not because I do not want my domain, or my site, no.

My mistake was using WordPress.com rather than WordPress.org.

When I set up my site and this blog I didn’t even know that there were two sites. It wasn’t until after I had paid money that I realized I had intended to use WordPress.org.

For now I am sticking with my decision and WordPress.com.

When it comes time to pay again, however, I plan to migrate my site to WordPress.org.

First Day of Praxis Pre-Program

Yesterday I gained access to the education portal and the Slack for Praxis. I officially start in October and just entered the two-month pre-program phase now that it’s August.

Coming up I’m going to be very busy. I run my blog, I work with Justine on Over the Invisible Wall, and I am balancing two jobs. Plus now I’m adding Praxis to all that. Oh, and I have my family, friends, and boyfriend to think about too.

As much as I have going on, as busy as I am, I don’t mind. If it gets to be too much, I can quit balancing two jobs and only have one. I am committed to everything else I have decided to do. Only one of my jobs is non-essential. I will do what I set out to do and I will find ways to manage my time well to be as stress-free as possible.

Broken Streak

I did not post yesterday. I had a daily streak from July 2nd to July 30th. Today is a new day, I’m starting over. This is day one.

Additionally, the last few days I didn’t write anything. At all. No daily poems either. That streak ran from July 18th to July 27th. Today will be day one. I haven’t written the poem yet, but I will write one.

Despite breaking my streaks, I still feel that building the habit was valuable. If I can blog 29 days straight on my first try, how many days can I go on my second? I’ve done it once, I can do it again. If I can write a poem every day for 10 days, how many more days can I write a poem every day for?

This is a renewal, a new beginning.